Heart Vs. Mind
Days are up and down for me. Sometimes I feel like I’m finally happier than I’ve been in the last 6 months. Sometimes I look back and miss the old days and think maybe I’m not strong enough yet. But either way there’s one thing I’ve finally learned and come to fully understand. Your heart will always be right. And your mind will always be wrong. It is the truth of love, beauty, and life itself.
I remember when I first wanted to tell you that I loved you. There were several moments. One night into the beginning of us I wanted to tell you when I held your hand for the first time, on the beach. Four days in you wanted to tell me you loved me when you bought me a tooth brush for your place and replaced your old sheets with new ones. One week in I told everyone but you that I loved you when some asshole kissed me at the bar. Two weeks in you wanted to tell me you loved me when you burst through the door after work and rushed straight to me with the warmest hug because it’d been a whole 5 hours since we’d seen each other. All of these moment created because we felt something so great and powerful we were unable to form the feelings into words and instead turned them to actions. “Actions speak louder than words” is a saying because actions come from feelings and words come from thought. My brain couldn’t fathom how much I loved you. It couldn’t even begin to contain it. But my heart could.
Before I could think or move my lips to say anything, I could feel it all. Before anyone can ruin their feelings with over thinking them, inhibiting our true nature with hindering thoughts, we can feel.
And that is why your heart will always be right, and your brain will always be wrong. What you feel is what should be. So before we decide that our thoughts of uncertainty, mistrust, and analysis breed what should and shouldnt be, we must always choose what we feel instead.
To feel is to live. To second guess is to die.